Tired much? School, final practise for tomorrow's gala --- my drumming sucked, by the way --- and then dance class with absolutely no food in my tummy... I'm sure it was screaming at me, growling even. Now I'm trying to mentally prepare my toes for a possible death tomorrow as I'll be wearing heels for several hours, trying to tell my voice to stay clear and good but I guess telling it won't really help. Also, I would like it very much if I could just tell me muscles in my neck and shoulders to stop hurting and by that making them co-operate. But nooo, they have a mind of their own. Now all I can think of or say is OUCH.
So... Today at Psych we talked about fears, the origin of fear and the pros and cons of it to the human body and mind. We haven't yet learned to be afraid of new 'dangers' such as guns or explosives, or that is what the book tells me... I haven't ever witnessed someone pointing a gun at me so I wouldn't know whether I'd be scared but I'm thinking I would. But I guess by fearing it completely, people wouldn't even think of picking it up... Like, you wouldn't think of picking up a poisonous snake from the ground to throw it at someones neck so they'd get bitten and die? Or if you would, then I'd begin to worry about the state of your mentality. We all know some fears are rational and some aren't, and that some are indispensable for our survival. If we feared nothing, we'd all be jumping off buildings to see what it felt like... I don't know what I'm afraid of, really. It tends to change. I'm not afraid of spiders, or snakes, or something someone would usually be afraid of. I only fear darkness when standing. I'm only afraid of heights when I know I can't get down... Maybe not enough cortisol is produced in my body?
I like the word hippocampus for some weird reason. It sounds cute =) So does amygdala, you know, what alarms you and makes you react to danger, a sort of fear-reaction. Hippocampus calms ya down when it's a false alarm :]
Can't wait to hear this song tomorrow:
